Jack why is it that I know I need to not be alone ... but I avoid being in a intimate relationship now ...

Dear Glo, we avoid natural situations because we've been hurt and we have distressful feelings about it, also we have self-protective patterns to prevent being hurt again.

If you wish you can write details about your reatonships and what happened to hurt you in them and we can get to bottom of this difficulty, you're worth love and you need to give yourself a direction (mantra) that you are worth love and that your self-regard makes you strong. You use the mantra consciously and persistently and let out all the feelings that it stirs up. Best, Jack